Ok, I Will Blog......

The problem with allowing too much time to pass between blog posts is that I end up with a long list of stuff of which I can vaguely remember thinking "i should bless the world with my knowledge of this". So, when i (i told myself at the beginning of this blog that i would capitalize all the I's - look how far i(I) got) finally write the blog i have to either choose the most recent thought line, try to figure out what would impress the ladies the most, cut up a goat and find the answer in its liver, or list all of them. I (i) have decided to cut up the goat......but i dont have one.....so i will list random crap.....in no particular order.......in English......alphabetically.

1) i am thinking that i am more of a big picture guy than i thought. i say that because i am now obsessed with the ultimate big picture - anything transcendent. That is, all that will last forever. i can think of God, our souls, heaven, hell, and the Devil. well, maybe i shouldnt use the term "obsessed" - i would say that i am preoccupied. I would like to be obsessed because that would mean that i see people's eternity every time i talk to them and actively look for ways to find out where their soul is. But too often i get caught up in mud pies. CS Lewis helped me see myself when he said:

We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.

b) this may be in the same vein as the above point, but i am a hopeful romantic. In a way things like love and beauty and honor and bravery and1 are all transcendent (except for the last one - it is a clothing brand, although their b-ball crew transcends gravity - what what!) I dont know how others would define it, but i define a romantic as someone who enjoys these things and wants to pursue them. I think there is that romantic in all of us - we just push that part of us aside as pure emotionalism that gets in the way ( i do it....and i also push my romantic notions aside) i think we can use these areas to our advantage when we talk to atheists and secularists - they will try to explain God or religion away as superstitious hogwash, but we can counter by asking them what they believe about love. Can they prove love? Can they explain love? I am sure most of them believe it exists because they have felt it. If they wont concede the point, i wonder what kind of romantic dinner they have with their spouse. would it be something like this?:

Atheist: A chemical reaction in my brain induced me to experience feelings which losers would call "care" or "love" toward you which i then filtered through my immense reason and reached the conclusion that a valentines eve dinner with you would cause a chemical reaction in your brain, which could lead to you doing stuff for me.
Atheist's spouse: You have such a way with words! I am swooning! I am in mid-swoon over here! I am almost all the way swoo......ok i'm done.
Atheist: I remember when i first met you, i thought to myself, i said, "Brilliant atheist, this woman looks like she is fertile and will bear strong offspring for you so that you may have a male heir. So in keeping with Darwin, I, the strongest, picked you, the strongest so that we may have strong kids. You had them and they are strong - but you are no longer strong. So......."
Atheist's spouse: What are you saying? Out with it! I'm going to order some rolls, you want some? Why would you say i am no longer strong? I still cause chemical reactions in your brain right? These shoes go with this jacket right?
Atheist: Ok, i will out with it.....those shoes are ugly and you are weak and of no more use to anyone - therefore the waiter will kill you now (thats why this place is so expensive, they do more than cook food)
Atheist's spouse: WHAT!!!!! I cant believe you dont like my shoes!!! AHHHH!

Wow i kinda went too far with that didnt i - but it was fun, so no apologies! (i'm sorry) Another thing - i had more stuff to write but i expended my energy on the atheistic dinner and the place in which i am sitting is going to kick me out - dang Coffee Beanery or whatever this place is called. I guess i should say quickly why i wrote letter 1 and #b- i think if we get these transcendent themes in our mind, we can touch those areas of thought that everyone has - that there has to be more. The big problem is that it is hard to think about these things because it makes a person increasingly dissatisfied with what we have worked so hard for, so far - these things on earth that pass away. I must and shall end with another Lewis quote!

You have never talked to a mere mortal. Nations, cultures, arts, civilizations — these are mortal, and their life is to ours as the life of a gnat. But it is immortals whom we joke with, work with, marry, snub, and exploit — immortal horrors or everlasting splendours